Take this MOMENT. Make it MARVELOUS. Move forward
Take notice!

As I sit here in Colorado I start to wonder exactly what I am doing with my life. What exactly is so consuming with my time that I failed to stop and notice all of the littler things around me. I have always been one to cherish the small moments, the little moments. But I am finding that there are even smaller and littler moments that need to be cherished. A lot of these things we over look as every day life. Or go our merry way never taking full notice to what is truly happening at that point in time.
For instance, last Sunday I went to a football bbq. I met my Aunt and Uncle’s friends. I didn’t know anyone there. But I talked to everyone who came in contact with me. I hardly realized that I was smiling. I mean I always smile, it just wasn’t something I took notice to because its a common thing for me. And when I’m not, it rarely takes anything to put the smile on my face but I don’t pay it much thought. Our common reactions to things we never really pay full attention too it seems because it is a part of us, of who we are. My Uncle pointed that out to me on the drive home. That my smile is beautiful and was definitely infectious that day. Then went on to tell me that his friend’s grandson has had a pretty rough life lately. He is from a different dad and his mom just died of cancer. He thought he was going to be kicked out of the only home he knew with his step dad who everyone, even him and his step dad, thought was his real father until his mom passed away and they all found the truth. Of course he didn’t, how could he? This boy has always been his son, and always will be regardless of what was said or done. Still lately he has been dealing with a lot of issues. Things everyone knows he has to work out for himself. At first when we arrived at the bbq he wasn’t all there, he wasn’t talking to his family, turned down his cousin to toss the football around a bit. I was introduced and figured maybe he was just a little shy, like I am sometimes. And then my uncle said he looked at me and smiled, simply because I was smiling. He started to play football with his cousin. He was, as his grandma put it thay day, acting like his normal self again. I never took notice because I had no idea. But had I been aware that because I was smiling that his whole attitude changed, I would have cherished the moment on a different level. Its so amazing what a simple smile can do for a complete stranger. Something that comes naturally, to cause a huge reaction. I wasn’t going there to make a difference but that is my life goal. To make a difference wherever I go. I wish I would have noticed it at the time that it was happening, instead of only taking notice of the moment after it already passed. We all need to pay a little more attention to detail, to all of the little things that are happening around us, and even more so to the smaller things that we call as a part of our everyday lives and who we are. Those normalities of who we are everyday, our persona and attitude, the way we carry ourselves, affect people in a way we can’t register until it happens. Go out into this world and make a positive moment to marvel at.

My grandpa’s 1967 Chevelle. In the process of restoring it completely to look like it did way back then. Love this. One day i am going to get my own and travel all over the place with it after I restore it.

Aspen and Bandit. I think I tired them out this morning by playing with them for a few hours. Had dog hair all over me! Wouldn’t trade it for a designer jacket any day. This is my passion. Just being with animals. They have a deeper soul than most of humanity and they have emotions stronger than meets the eye. Along with my travels that I will take. Animals of all sorts will be on my path and in my posts. I think this is the way I will make my difference in this world. With every being that I interact with I hope that maybe I can restore some hope. That maybe I can change a frown into a smile and warm a cold heart or change a soul. Don’t tell me I can’t do it. I will. Just watch me.

Aspen and Bandit. I think I tired them out this morning by playing with them for a few hours. Had dog hair all over me! Wouldn’t trade it for a designer jacket any day. This is my passion. Just being with animals. They have a deeper soul than most of humanity and they have emotions stronger than meets the eye. Along with my travels that I will take. Animals of all sorts will be on my path and in my posts. I think this is the way I will make my difference in this world. With every being that I interact with I hope that maybe I can restore some hope. That maybe I can change a frown into a smile and warm a cold heart or change a soul. Don’t tell me I can’t do it. I will. Just watch me.

Third part. Fantastic buildings and landmarks. An uprising city just on the other side of such majestic nature. Colorado is definitely a fine mix between a roaring of cities and a calming countryside.

Part two. In the time that I have been here already. I have noticed the wonderful mix of both beautiful nature and stricking industrial cities. Colorado is truly a wonder to wander around. There is no doubt in my mind the reasons why my Grandfather moved here from texas with my Aunt. Its magnificent views of course is one but he doesn’t have to move far to experience some of the things he has always wanted to experience without straining so much to do so.

First part to the beautiful nature that surrounds me on this travel to Colorado to visit my grandfather. To hear his wisdom as he uses his strength to pass to me the wonders of his life. And to listen to all the things he wishes he could have done. His regrets of not jumping at the chances and opportunities he could have experienced. Even though he tells such amazing tales of how full of love his life was. He wishes he would have found the balance to have them both.

One day I am going to let go and just run wild. I am going to find the courage to take off in flight and not stay stuck where I am, settling like dust in my old hometown. I am going to find someone who has the same fire as I do for wonder and knowledge. Someone who is not afraid to take a risk. Someone who is going to have the same love for experiences and learning as I do. Someone who will love me unconditionally as I am. And we are gonna run hand in hand. We are going to travel the world and make a difference together. We will be freely intelligent, and when we finally decide to settle down we will tell of all our adventures and look back without any regret because we will have already done it all.

My view every morning. Colorado Mountains and beautiful scenery.

My view every morning. Colorado Mountains and beautiful scenery.

I am 21 years old. I have given up so much of my life for so many people. And here I am in Colorado visiting my Grandpa who is nearing the end of his life. Every night that I have been here so far he comes out of his room for brief moments and we sit down at the table in chairs I know are uncomfortable for him aand we talk. We talk about his life when he was my age. He has been telling me bits and pieces of his story just as I figured he would. Life lessons. Some I have learned on my own and some I have yet to truly experience. But I am learning them from him now. I am listening. With so much intent. Learning my heritage and my family. Taking in every word he speaks as he says it in between ragged and struggled breaths. Before I left for this trip I talked to my pastor at my church in Texas. He asked me a question I couldn’t seem to answer then.
“When you make this trip, what do you plan to take from it? You have given so much and continue to do so just as a true and devoted Christian should. But this time. This one time, what do you plan to take from this trip?”
My answer that I have now that I didn’t have or could even begin to know then, is this…
What I plan to take from this trip, this traveling experience is quite simple, to find my own place in this world. I am listening to my grandfather speak about his life, his experience, his knowledge. And I want to learn from him. I want to understand my heritage, my family, and who he is. When I leave here and return home I hope to take with me a new outlook, and a new mind set for my own ambition and dreams to start living my life for myself. To start making my own story and journey as to where before I was living my life for the ones around me to help them with their stories and their journeys. Just a character on their paths in this life. I didn’t realize how stationary I was until now. How I wasn’t moving forward but I also wasn’t moving backwards. Just standing still and always remaining constant for others. I thought I was perfectly content and I have found that I am actually not even content at all. I, like every one else, deserve to find happiness and live an adventure. So that is exactly what I plan to do. Starting with this trip to Colorado. I will listen and learn from all that my grandpa tells me until he can’t tell me anymore.
“Its okay to stop on your path for a moment, but don’t stay there. Don’t dwell in one spot for too long. You gotta keep moving forward no matter where you are physically. Otherwise you will never learn all that life has to offer as I have learned only a little bit. There is so much more out there. And the only regret I have now as I am nearing the end of mine is that I didn’t experience as much as I could have. I didn’t take the time to learn and do more than what I have. Don’t make the same mistake I did. But don’t feel bad about making your own mistakes either. Thats how you grow.”

I am going to Colorado!!! Suitcase is packed and ready to go once again. Man, I love traveling!!!

I am going to Colorado!!! Suitcase is packed and ready to go once again. Man, I love traveling!!!